And I need a break
But I hate that feeling that I get when I’m absent from
stuff
That left out feeling
Even though it was me that walked away
I just want people to come find me
Come find me
I want to be high
To find that place inside me where all that real stuff is
That stuff that’s so difficult to find when I’m not outside
myself
I always feel so detached from myself
And I hate it
How do people feel connected
How does the world seem real
I just want to get high
And be high
And write and purge this feeling
This shit feeling
In a way that touches me
And touches you
And it’s so frustrating
I don’t want to be that kind of person
But I don’t want to care and I want to write so badly
So badly
I just want to scream it all onto paper and throw it out
into the void and enjoy the satisfaction it brings
And I’m so tempted
So tempted
