Drowning

Drowning.

And I don’t know what to do.

And I don’t know what to say.

Trying not to think too hard.

Trying not to focus on what’s going on inside.

What’s tearing me apart?

Fear. Agony. Loneliness. Despair.

I just want to hide in the corner between the bed and the wall.

Shut my eyes tight.

Cover my face.

Close my ears.

Scream and scream and scream in silence.

Cry until I choke and drown.